blog.
12.16.2016
Is it called naivity
If I'm excited about what's to come
Even when it seems imaginary
Dreaming with God
It wasn't that God was giving me a greater destiny according to how faithful I was.
Someone needed to grasp hold of His dream in order to claim it as their own, & I was simply the one who said yes.
I hadn't earned my destiny, God had gifted me with one from the very beginning.
I didn't deserve it, & I most definitely wasn't more qualified than anyone else around me.
& if I had chosen to walk away, my destiny would not have changed.
Until Marriage
I told God one day about 2 years ago to teach me how to love ministry more than I love anything else in the world. Even my dancing. Not ministry, as in the one retreat, or the one Sunday service, or the one church that I attend. But ministry, as in living my life day to day being careful & aware of what His heart is aching to do & who His heart is aching for. & then carrying that out, even if that means surrendering my own desires, my time, my energy, & my leisure in order to do it.
Wrestling with God
I strongly believe that one can only wrestle with God if they have the friendship & relationship with Him to be able to go to Him & say,
"God, I know you want me to live in this way, but I can't seem to fully surrender myself to that, so would you equip me (whatever that may look like- even if it's different from my expectations) in a way where my name, my very identity, every inch of my bones is in perfect tune with your plans for me."
Dancing with the Devil
You.
Your eyes were devilish, evil in so many ways. But they lured me in.
Gentle. Captivating.
Keep Pressing Forward
Life will always be full of ups & downs. I've learned to embrace the fact that this is just the way it's gonna be. That's the journey. Ups, downs, loops, & unexpected turns. But no reverse- so keep pressing forward. Even if you have to stop every now & then- keep pressing forward. You are doing a great job. Because you have purpose, & it is the greatest purpose you will ever find.
Captivated
You captivated me.
Standing under the bright streaks of sunlight with your hands inside your pockets, on top of the steps of some cool pyramid shaped structure somewhere in downtown LA.